Glenmaggie

let me set the story on this one..

I was so excited to write this weeks journal entry. I had the BEST day yesterday, it was by far my favourite walk yet. I had traveled to sale to drop my film off to be developed, due to a mix up in communication they wouldn’t have it ready for a week. This wasn’t going to work for me as this is due on Sunday. My only option was to wait until tomorrow when I go to Uni and drop it off there.

So I am an hour and a half from home, I’ve got my FA with me and my pinhole camera and I have one roll of black and white film.

I have enough images to complete this project. But I haven’t really done a lot of walks recently and I can feel myself spiralling into a “This is too much, I want to quit”

So I google some locations near me and I end up in Glenmaggie. which consists of a caravan park and a man made lake that is huge.

The weather is overcast and a little bit rainy, and the reflection of the surrounding lake on the water is beautiful.

I park my car and get out and start walking. I set my phone alarm for 2pm as this is the time I needed to leave to make sure I was back in time for school pick up.

I walked and I walked, I photographed the water and the trees, little flowers and random logs, I photographed birds flying and old dead trees that were just beautiful sitting along the waters edge.

I found the leaver that allows me to take multiple exposures and I had a little play with that too.

my alarm goes off and I have to leave. I was in the zone but I had to leave.

I had 10 images left on my roll of film and decided that I would just get to Collarts early in the morning and finish it off there.

The next day I get to Collarts with one hour until class. I was on the biggest high from yesterday I knew that the roll of film in my camera had some great images on it. I just needed to walk and finish the roll of film.

So I walked again, I was calm, unbothered by the people walking past me, I knew they were staring but I wasn’t bothered, I walked and found a road with buildings either side where people were walking past as they crossed the road and the light was perfectly shaped on the road and as they crossed the road they would walk into the light. So I stood there and waited patiently for them to walk past and took the photos.

At this point I was really talking myself up, telling myself that the images are great. They’re way better than The ones I took on my first roll of black and white film. I had a few clicks left and started to walk back to Collarts and made friends with a cat. Took the last final images on the roll and walked into class.

Feeling so relaxed and destressed…. My film was dropped off and I waited for the long awaited email to say “Your images have been successfully uploaded”

This is where it all turns to crap and my whole walk was a waste of time. Well I am supposed to say that, the whole walk was great and it’s ok that I lost a whole roll of film. I am not ready for that way of thinking yet and so yes the walk was great and I felt good and the whole process has worked. However I still don’t have anything to show for the walk other than this journal entry…

All I have to show for the last few walks is this..

Image of a ruined film roll that has not been developed correctly.